wee~
tml public holi no sch.
can slp till anytime i want.

had my PIC and PTQA viscosity test.
both passed. hehz.
and jux as i expected,
my name was in the debar list.
i was issued the debarment appeal form by my ca.
she told me to write the reasons down on another piece of paper,
in order to convince them wit more words.
grrrrr..
if she's gonna approve means she will,
and if she doesnt u cant negociate it wit her either.
i seriously dun see any pt in it.
im not working neither do i hv any watsoever problems.
my ca knows it all.
theres no need to lie or pretend it.
the appeal form need to be handed back by wed.

meeting them up later on for rounding again.
*yippe

as planned..
we went cycling at east coast in the afternoon.
aft returning our rented bikes,
we headed to parkway parade for a walk.
and we saw yuemei working at one of the shop there.
the guys went smoking together wit her outside the mall,
while i walk alone looking for clothes.

i was feeling kinda tired thru out.
lack of slp i guess.
my head felt heavy.
but still i hv to endure back to batok.
i was abt half dead when they reached my hse.
aft bathing i straight away went to bed..
pull my blanket and everything for a slp.
and slpt till now. -_-
they alrdy gone out for dinner as i told them not to wait for me to be awake.
but nvm..
they helping me to tabao over.
my personal delivery.
hahaha.
and i left with the only choice..
'MACDONALS'
hopefully the mac will taste as nice as CHICKEN CHOP.
cos im desperately carving for one now!

hving my PIC phrase re-test tml morning again.
it really really bores me!!!
and i almost forgot abt the PIC project.
KAOX!!
i hate PROJECTS.
cos im always too lazy to do them.

woke up at ard 10.50am.
cant believe dat i actually slpt for only ard..
5 HRS!!
and im feeling wide awake right now.
all due to waking up early for sch everyday.

went to catch transporter2 wit them ytd night.
went down cine at ard 11+ jux to buy tickets for the 2am show.
didnt want the tickets to sold out b4 we could get any of them.

time was still early b4 the show time.
went to lau pasa to fill our stomach.
aft which we headed to marina for some arcade games.
its been quite sometime since we last play the VERY FUN GAME.
*laughs*
i got no idea wat is it called.
there's this green, blue and red round big buttons on the machine..
testing how fast ur mind and hand can response.
and if u got the last in any particular stage..
u loss a life out of 3 lifes for one credict.
haiya..
basically its a game which u jux hv to keep on hitting those buttons.
hahaha.

we played a few rounds then went back cine for our movie.
the show was nice. *thumbs up*
a recommended movie i must say.
back to hm aft dat.
and reached my hse ard 5am.

and for now..
i was thinking where we can go later on when all of them are awake.
other than CYCLING i cant think of any.
hahaha.

went to trim my hair a lil aft sch wit fatty.
my hair still remains the same.
not much diff.
fringe shorter and hair thinner.
and my eye-length fringe has been irritating my eyes since i came back.
went to wash my eyes whenever it hurts too much.
ARGHHH!
i wanna dye my hair.
i saw a 2 combined hair dye colour in the salon jux now.
the combination of the 2 colours really nice.
how i wish the colour is now on my hair.
my fringe looks kinda weird without any colour.
i wanna colour my hair b4 CNY..
but where the hell can i dig 100+ bucks out???
oh God..
pls enlighted me.

jux finish watching my CHEN JUN GE.
finish watching till disc 15,
another 5 more disc to go.
if only me and my prince charming is playing the both role in real life.
KWON SANG WOO!!
too HOTTT!:)


and it constantly remind me of HIM again.
thinking of him..
i know it very clearly in mind,
its not a vise-versa thing.
even if i miss him it will only be one sided.
but nvm..
im single so im carefree to do wat i feel like doing.
even if its missing someone occasionally.


WARNING: TOO HOT TO HANDLE!! DON'T DROOL TOO MUCH!!

-MY FREAKY CLASSMATES-

ARRRRR...
wats wit me?
i cant believe im actually missing someone.
IM MISSING HIM!

i force myself to back away the feeling,
but i cant. -_-
ytd night i had a sudden urge to send him a msg.
i tot for a very long time..
shld i or shld not?
and eventually i decided to msg him.
out of expected,
he did reply my msg despite the late hrs.
i was GLAD to recieve his reply.
its dat kind of inexpressible feeling which seldom exist in me.
not only its beyond words but an unspeakable feel.
perhaps it wld be better if he's in s'pore right now.
at least we cld meet up wit each other or a chat on phone.

was it a mistake to msg him in friendster in the very first place?
*confused*
thou he's very different in terms of appearance now,
but still he's always someone nice to me.

images of the past kept flashing by.
back then when we were both ard the age 11.
we meet up almost everyday together wit his sis.
still remember once when my roller blade was spoiled,
the buckle of the roller blade broke.
he tried ways to fix it back.
cos he know i will get it hard from my bro if he finds out.
but in the end he didnt manage to fix back.
he console me and try to make me feel less worry.
and even accompanied me back hm carrying the roller blade.
but of cos not both blades he carry ar,
we carry one each.

wanted to share my tots together wit him,
but he wasnt online again.
*saddened*
how i wish he's back here.
so near yet so far.

i told myself ytd dat its the first n last time dat i'll make the first move to msg him.
yes, its the very first and last time.
pple who know me well will know y.
its jux a kind of intuition.
i dun wish to be the one suffering at the end.
cos lesson are meant to be learned.

my naughty classmates.

had a very BAD DREAM a few mins ago. was taking my nap and i jux realise its only an hr nap this time. i couldnt get into any slp aft im being woke up by the dream. so bad till the kind of inner fear is still within me thou its a dream only.
i dreamt dat i was on fan's bike and out of nowhere there's two malay guys on their bike chasing us on road. we kept on running but dunno y dat fan's bike is jux to slow. soon they catch us up and trap us. we were ask to come down from the bike for a talk. i totally got no idea wat was it abt. one guy pull fan to a corner and the other guy pull me to another corner. i overheard wat fan and the malay guy was talking abt. smth abt fan's friend. someone i dunno abt. suddenly the malay guy ask me abt dat someone they are talking abt. i dun even know who it is also. so i tell him i dunno anything abt dat particular person. and u know wat the malay guy did? he took out a small knife and slash on my hand. ewwwww!!! i can feel the pain now. ouccchhhhh! the guy didnt believe me and he kept on slashing on my hand suspecting i was trying to hide smth. and dat stupid fan jux kept quiet standing there, see me kanna slash by the guy only. the only thing i know was im crying like hell while he was slashing my hand. i was feeling so scared and suddenly i woke up wit my right hand being cramped.
once in awhile i will had this kind of very scary dream whereby someone chasing me.
actually there's more to blog abt the trip this afternoon to the old folks' hm at somewhere ard yishun. but fan coming to pick me up in another 15 mins for dinner together. but nevertheless there's one last thing..

Kwon Sang Woo!!!:)))))))))
Im still so MESMERISED by himm!
take me to heaven!

changed a totally new layout, uploaded myself. this time its super duper pink in colour, thou i dun fancy pink colour. lols.

RATE IT PLS!

awww.. my today's dinner appetite is complete satisfied!!! lols. went to geylang serai wit my parents and fan. malays food are always so irrisistable, yummy and delicious. *thumbs up* i wouldnt miss it to go there every yr. anyway going again next wk wit fan. simply bcos of the reason, the food is so so so yummy, WE WANT MORE. hahaha.

finally i tested the power of superfour.
dat kind of power is nth new to me.
chicken feet nah..
no kick at all.
u heard dat MR LO QIFAN!!!
hahaha.
perhaps aft u run in will b a different one.
i really hope so u know.
cos till now i still cant see the real power of ur superfour. *boring

went cycling wit them at east coast in the afternoon.
i love cycling!!!
hahaha.
i guess its abt a few mths since i really know how to cycle on a 2 wheel bicycle.
alright, laugh all u want abt it.
i dunno how to cycle since young,
but now its different :)
hahaha.
had a very minor accident while cycling today.
lols.
hurt a lil on my leg and left hand.
fortunately it wasnt those kind of big bruises i get.
i hate to worry abt those bruises scars when it's abt to heal.
apparently there wasnt any other guys ard there,
so was quite ok.
hahaha.
cant imagine how wld i handle dat kind of embarrassment.

and here I am once again,
to talk about KWON SANG WOO!!:)))))))
he rockss!
im so EXCITEDD..
wheeeeeeeeeeee.
finish watching half of it alrdy.
another half more to go.
the sight of him is nv enuf for me!
i want more of him.
MORE MORE MORE!

feeling so cold.
my feets are freezing right now.

sch was alright today.
bear came to pick me up for lunch together wit the rest during break time.
headed over to fengyin's place there for lunch.
and i had chicken rice AGAIN.
im so sick of eating chicken rice, duck rice, chicken rice, duck rice and then chicken rice again.
arghhhhh.
i hardly can finish the whole plate.
more than half of the chicken rice is wat i left over.
oh ya..
and dat bear nv ever fails to make us laugh wit all his stupid stunts.
hahaha.
remind me of dat kappa pants he wear dat day to visit hock.
i cant stop laughing at his pants.
wahahahaha.
SEXY BUTTS.

went back to sch aft lunch and teacher gave us a early release at 4pm.
consider a very very early release on monday.
if not we'll hv to leave at ard 6pm.
when u can barely see any other students in the campus.

tml might be going east coast park to cycle wit them again.
as bear got 2 days off.
yeah yeah yeah.
so happy abt it.
hahaha.

hoping away to heaven to see Kwon Sang Woo!!
ONLY U melt in my heart,
while others melt in my hands.
hahaha.

firstly i apologise for any inconvenience abt e password thingy.
theres some personal reasons behind for using it. :)
its jux a temporary one.
no worries abt it.
i hope i dun hv to use it for long also.
cos i find it kinda troublesome.

ytd was the very last time i sit on fan's kawa bike.
no longer will i hv the chance again.
*sob
but nvm..
cos im even happier to sit on his new superfour.
wahahaha.
soon im gonna test the power of it.
aft we acc fan take his new bike at bt merah..
we headed to east coast park to CYCLE!
yeah~
and once again i merrily enjoyed myself cycling.
took some pic wit hao when resting at bedok jetty.
as usual we meet up at night.
went to catch the movie "gigolo" at lido.
indeed a humorous show.
lols.

well dats how i spent my ytd.
and now its abt TODAY!

received a msg from yingmei when we reach newton circus.
its abt dat HUANG DENENG.
stupid idiotic ah teck.
we are alrdy very hungry and still wanna find fought wit us.
put horse come lah.
arsehole.
u are jux a small lil brat to us.
think we give a bloody damn of wat u said?
u are alrdy not fit to a father in the very first place.
so y mind so much abt wat u did in the past.
u scared of those FACTS dat will stink ur reputation of being a FATHER uh?
ANYWAY ITS ALL THE FACTS ABT WAT U DID! GET THIS RIGHT!
and by stating the actual facts out is not wrong at all.
trying to hide it doesnt help either.


my very last time on this kawa!!! see how happy my face was. i smile till hardly can see my eyes. hahaha.


me and hao.. stupid camel.

IM SO IN LOVE WIT KWON SANG-WOO!

wishing he's right beside me at this moment,
lying gently on his chest,
wispering softly in my ears.
and gradually get closer and closer and closer..
touch each other's lips and we..
*slapping myself to awake.

in case u are wondering who the hell im talking abt..
he's the korean actor starring in the drama series 'stairway to heaven'.

thou i jux started watching it,
i cant believe i burst into tears almost every min.
i even hv to force myself to stop watching it for the day.
as i wouldn't want my eyes to be blotted up like goldfish the very next morning.
ok i know it sounds very dramatic here.
but its so ultimate touching.
awwww.
his eyes can gaze with an intensity that can melt any woman's heart.
he melted my heart jux like any yellow evo IX.

THERE'S MORE OF HIM TO DRY UP MY TEARS.

AH FOONGGGG? WHERE ARE U? IM SO WORRIED ABT U RIGHT NOW. PLS COME OUT WHERE EVER U ARE.




THERE U ARE. SO NAUGHTY OF U. PROMISE ME U'LL NEVER LEAVE ME.




IM NOT GONNA LET U GO AGAIN!

MUAHAHAHAHA~

i've read the e-mail u send me.
i guess im born the way i am.
hate me, loathe me..
do watever u want to me.
cos i might not be able to understand the word 'feelings'!

lately im in very low spirits.
simply bcos of the word LIFE.
my everyday doesnt seems to be better.
neither do i expect to have better tml.
i tried to be optimistic but i failed again and again.
all my desire, hopes and expectations totally seems too unrealistic to me.
its way beyond wat i've always longed for.
is this life?
im no longer me.
its dat wat i want to be like?

i've tried to kept many things inside of me,
ever since dat i decided maybe this will be a better choice for me.
cos im simply too lazy to explain when others ask the question of "WHY".
and im damn annoyed by pple trying to assume y this and dat.
they dun help me feel any better by guessing it.
but making me feel worse.

i have everything i wanted..
friends,
family,
warmth,
leisure,
comfort..
everything i have it.
but i jux couldnt figure it y im feeling so sucked.

my bestie is no longer there for me ALWAYS like we used to in the past.
i've tried to accept the fact dat she got her own life as well,
cos i know everything can never be reverse back.
and no doubt she's very sociable and nice to get along too.
at times i really had the urge of telling her how i feel and wat happen to me.
but i dunno where shld i start.
and so i always ended up lying on bed,
using the unrealistic word of 'hoping' dat everything will b better aft a night of slp.

im easily pissed off by tiny lil bit of things ard me.
i cant deny im so affected by it.
my tears went rolling down my cheeks un-controlled.
and when dat happens..
my mind appear my past sorrowful images,
feeling so displeased and discontented.

there's too much to expect in life.
jux a small world yet so much unwanted happenings in it.

ytd went to bugis wit them.
headed to visit hock at NUH aft dat.
his spine was hurt.
and mean time couldn't walk.
even if recover also cant walk for a period of time.
sigh.
being too playful always lead to unwanted accident.
now he finally understand dat not every corner can play as he like.
i hope its still not too late for him.
gonna visit him again wit them later on.
*uploaded some pics of his bike aft accident.

had my distillation phrase test jux now.
turn out to be fairly ok.
having so many tests every wk.
when will it all end?
and wats more the exams are getting nearer each day.
feeling annoyed, pissed, fucked..


tragedy one


tragedy two


his speedo meter

jux as wat i expected..
dat ms eileen ask me to stay back for a talk wit her.
i cant deny the sight of her really spoils my everything.
she ask me y i talk to her in dat rude manner when she ask me wat im doing wit my hp.
asking me whether am i feeling moody.
the only thing i answer her is 'nth, nth, nth'.
she thinks im dat previous zhenfoong who used to CHAT wit her.
fat hope!
it had alrdy come to an end.
she told me dat teachers are human also.
they too feel bad if students talk to them in dat way.
she didnt talk to me for long as i wasnt concentrate on wat she way saying.
all i do was looking ard when she was talking.
and the conclusion she told me was:
'teacher is also a human being.'
i desperately wanted to tell her dat WE STUDENTS ARE HUMAN AS WELL.
WE ARE NOT YOUR MAID!!!
i know i still got a long way to go b4 i graduate.
i dont wanna make my life hard in campus too.
as long as she dont mess wit me im fine wit it.
but i wont b like last time chatting wit her.
cos she really really hurt my dignity.
cant take in any more of it from her.

went to visit yingmei and her baby ytd.
her baby super cute sia.
1 mth plus only.
still very very small.
its like so tiny winy.
lols.
look like those doll.
=XXXXXX
if only her baby is much older.
sure fun playing wit her.
anyway hoping the best for her and her lil baby. :)

i love my blogskin!!! lalala~