i've cease to update eversince the incident. nv did i hv the courage to face it but once again im grateful to them for being there for me. now im living my life as it is, daily routines.. roundings, sch and shopping. btw i bought lots of makeups recently and aft days of shopping i finally bought a top i quite like from m)phosis, yellow in colour.

reborned my hair a few wks ago. and my bloody fringe still looks damn chaotic can? colouring my hair on tues. still thinking what colour should go with it.

sch was alright, gossips and laughing at others as usual.

meet up with EY ytd at coffeebean awhile for a chat. time past by fast as we reminisced the life back then, young and carefree it is.

meeting them up for shopping again later. =))

im here for the sake of blogging only.

life's full of ups and downs. unwanted happenings persistently adding on and pile up one aft another esp when u're in the most crucial and critical moment. but no matter how hard life gets u down, one must be strong to overcome and pull it thru. cos u nv know tml's gonna be a better and brighter day ahead for u. i've said so much and apparently i still can't apply them on myself.
clear pictures of the incident still appearing every now and then. the impact was too strong this time, strong enough that im afraid to say i might nt be able to overcome it. perhaps i shld say im absolutely lost what im supposed to do to actually overcome it. as days goes by i realise it's haunting me more, as a result im strung up and getting more depressing as it goes on. i totally hv no idea how long it'll tk me to walk out of it, such thing nv happen in my whole lifetime, and i swear nv ever did i expected of all pple it will happen on ME. why am i the victim of so many left in s'pore? wasn't my luck or i deserve it? i seriously need time for myself to relieve the affliction right now.

thus im gonna stop blogging for the time being until i feel better.

haven't been in the mood to blog lately. life's just so damn freaking bored, every singly fucking day. im extremly jaded.

i just called colin, my hairstylist that is. ask her abt the price for rebonding and colouring of my hair. $150 rebonding and $60 for colour. actually i wld prefer lot more perming my hair than to reborn it but the length of my hair is still kinda short to perm it now. im also thinking if i shld reborn my hair cos it is still straight as u can see but on the other hand my hair is such a chore to tidy it when its messy with new hair growing out and leaving the reborn ones on the bottom.

gotta return to sch next mon. sian -____-

new wishlist up! and new blog song from wang li hong.

KAOX! the ceramic curling iron which i just bought is damn super buay kan. it was far too much then what i expected. -_____- $14.90 wasted. grr..


im sure u agrees with me that Centrepoint did a fantastic job on christmas lightings this yr.
it's so BEAUUUUUTIFUUUL!



last pic to end the day =))

爱不是培养出来的, 而是本来就存在的。

我等的人会是谁...

i suddenly think of the PATHETIC fireworks we watched that day, the last day of 2005 that is. and nt forgetting the fucking TP.
that night the side of the highway were alrdy packed with cars waiting for the fireworks and despite that, the guys still manage to find a place to park their cars along the side. and when everyone was eagerly waiting for the fireworks, TP came and chase us away. bloody hell. instantly mood spoiled. cant the TP just close one eye that kind of thing? the highway was alrdy jam and how the hell are we, i mean the whole stretch of cars parked along the side going to move out? despite the heavy jam, the guys suggested driving up further to the front, and hoping it might be the right time for the fireworks to start when we reach the spot. but the cars hardly move due to the jam. the time was soon to reach 12am and we are still stuck at the spot with the huge tree blocking the view of the fireworks. soon the fireworks start with a loud BOOM, we look thru the window looking at the fireworks with the bloody huge tree blocking infront. damn pathetic lor. if the TP was nice enough nt to chase us away we could hv watch the beautiful fireworks. damn it! come to think of it the whole trip was such a waste. duhz!

ooh yah.. 16 jan is the actual day for reporting sch, which is another 2 wks from now. i've totally no idea how come i mistaken it as 06 jan for sch reopen. LOL. luckily i asked hanxiang, my helpful class rep that is, to double confirm it if nt probably i'll still be left in the dark. hah.

alright i hv to declare im still so damn broke right now and due to that, i'll keep looking thru the newspaper daily for part time jobs. but still i cant bear to sacrifice the time to play if i were to work. =((

i just knew 5 mins ago that YQ will be going back brunei again aft the 10 days in s'pore. SIGH~ im so lost in words right now. all along i thought he'll be back in s'pore aft coming back in feb but who knows it turn out... ARGHHHS! he told me he'll be officially back in may and ORD soon in june.

well.. perhaps at times it'll be better to hope and longed for something then to know it's always there for u. i'll just hv to look positively at it. =))