MY HOROSCOPE OF THE DAY

Love is a very real thing to you, and you are apt to take this aspect of your life extremely seriously - perhaps even too seriously, ZhenFoong. This is one of those emotions that encapsulate your whole body, eventually taking over your brain and leaving no room for rational thoughts on this topic. The good news is that matters regarding love and romance should be coming to a stabilized point at this time - giving you the opportunity to face this area of your life from a grounded, rational perspective.

^{"Love is a very real thing to you, and you are apt to take this aspect of your life extremely seriously - perhaps even too seriously"} did it really happen that way, i questioned myself in doubt.

my life's aint gonna be better without any clubs, entertainments which can entertain me to the fullest and MOOLAHS to do my hair and buy whatever i want. ARGHSSSSSSS~ its driving me nuts! DAMN IT!

i've drained all my energy for singing k for 4+ hrs man.
physically exhausted now.
went to sing k with fatty and hao.
supposely to check out at 7.30pm but one of hao's friend extended our room hrs till 9.30pm.
once the tidbits were served, we ate non-stop and there goes my lunch and dinner for today. hah. money saving. =))
we check out at ard 8+pm, sing till mouth tired. LOL

chilled at alameen with hao again ytd.
usual chats and conversations.
hao suggested to tk the first bus of the day and go down sembawang beach, but i didnt feel like going..
and since we both dont want to reach hm before dawn, i decided that we WALK together from alameen to my hse, unbelievable uh?
aft 25mins of walking or rather strolling together, we reached my hse.
and hao took a cab hm from there.

im still deciding whether to work part-time when sch reopen.
i desperately need to do my hair and colour it. ARGHS~

weihao must be anxious to read my today's entry to see if i've lied anything practically abt him.
right, mr camel?
hahahaha~

meet up with hao at 3+am. took a cab down together and chilled at alameen. ard 4+am to 5am, we realised that we are the only customer left at alameen. LOL. and no doubt the workers there are always friendly, the teh-tarak man shown us his teh-tarak skill. hah.
going hm was the ever last thing on our mind, so we suggested to tk the first bus before dawn and go east coast park. hahaha. u probably might think we went bonkers.
so we took 173 to clementi interchange and change to bus 196. aft a ride of abt 2 hrs we finally reach east coast. we stroll for less than 15 mins there and 'I' decided to go back. LOL. cos the freaking bright sunlight irritates my eyes alot. and we couldnt find a spot where we can sit down and watch the beautiful sea without the sunlight shinning on us. hao was certainly unwilling to leave and kept saying im so 'gian song' to travel all the way for hrs and leave aft reaching awhile.
kakaka~
so we walk to the bus-stop again and took bus 196 back to clementi. both of us starts getting tired on the journey back. but hardly can we find a gd position to doze off on the bus. and suddenly i had a strong craving for egg tarts in the middle of the ride, usual me. and so aft we alight at clementi we went to find egg tarts at those bakery shops. we bought one egg tart specially for me and some breads to go along. we sat outside a nearby mac to eat our breads and SURPRISINGLY i recieve a morning msg from YQ. hahaha~ as usual i got teased from hao saying that i can forget abt slping aft i reach hm. we took a cab hm from there aft we finished our breads.
reached hm abt 11am. get my things done, and went to bed. waited for his sms reply till i fall aslp. heh. most likely there's somekind of connection error in between. we havent been chatting on phone for the past 2 days. but that's alright.. cos absence makes one stronger. moreover it'll cost him alot for long distant calls. so smsing will be enough. =))

anyway THANKS hao for me accompanying me out again without any grumblings.
thanks friend. =))
going malaysia with them later on.
hopefully it wont turn out like the precious trip there cos i'll be qq's pillion again tonight.

i shldn't hv step in MARINA SQUARE with hao ytd. *sighing heavily
before we went for steamboat,
we drop by at MS where bao was working to pick her up first.
upon reaching, we called her a few times but no one pick up.
aft waiting for abt 15 mins, i decided to go up and look for her together with hao.
and thats the BIG BIG MISTAKEN which i did. ARGHS~
u must be wondering what's so wrong to just look for a friend at her workplace.
my eyes starts to get busy at the moment i step in the shopping mall.
rolling left to right, seeing front to back..
im so attracted to all the clothes, shoes, necklaces, bags and almost everything lah.
i cant stand still while waiting for bao outside kbox.
my eyes glance and glance but i kept telling myself 'if i go means i'll die'.
but but but...
i still walk up to those shop and see in the end, i simply cant resisit it!
as usual i whine all night abt it and i cant get into slp the whole night.
thinking abt those stuffs i saw. sigh sigh sigh.
where's my moolahs??? i need them to save me!

aft steamboat we went to chilled at labrador park awhile and headed hm.
chatted on phone with YQ again.
he's arriving back on the 9th of feb. =))
we've promised to meet up for dinner aft he come back.

while chatting on phone with fatty ytd night,
he asked me if i've did anything MEMORABLE in the whole yr of 2005.
and i came to realised i've yet did any shit in the entire yr.
im getting more and more lazy as yrs goes by.
and fatty.. i suddenly thought of smth which u can feel worth remembering,
it's your class 2A license.
at least u got 2 license now and i hv none of it. fucked~
time cant turn back and what done can nv be undone.
i dun wanna go thru another new yr full of regrets again.

new yr resolutions up!
-be more understanding towards others
-learn to treasure things ard me [im hoping i can AT LEAST fulfill this]
-learn malay language [MUST]
-save money
-DIET
-be HAPPY everyday.

dont bother to read this entry if u think that im gonna write lots of entertaining and fun happenings for christmas this yr. cos i spent my christmas countdown just like any other day when we go for roundings. no clubs, drink, ktv.. i totally feel numb for christmas this yr!!! ROAR~

same old routine.. eat, slack and back hm. mt faber was damn packed ytd night. crowd was packed and cars jammed everywhere. we could hardly find a parking lot hence bear parked his car at a distant away from the place where we could get the best view of the fireworks.
we walked up the slope and to where the crowd was and god damn hell i was wearing a pointed shoe. grr.. i didnt whine a single bit abt the unbearable pain my shoe was giving me cos i tot aft all it will be worth to see the beautiful fireworks.
the crowd started to get excited when its abt time for the fireworks.. and BOOM all of a sudden the sky was filled with bright fireworks which lasted for only 3 secs. bloody hell.. none of us knew its only a 3 sec fireworks. ARGHS! and that makes us wondered if the crowd knew that they were waiting for a 3 sec fireworks or most of them were like us, assuming that the fireworks last for 15 mins yet it turn out to be only a 3 sec fireworks. DUHZ. wah liew eh~ kanna cheated like a fool man. and the pain caused by my shoe was killing me even more as we walked down the slope, my toes where like 'OUCHHHHH'! the whole mt faber trip sucks lah~

we headed back hm aft that. i reached hm at 12+am. imagine the whole lot of pple at orchard were hving hella fun when im back at hm. grr..
i spent rest of the night chatting on phone with YQ and fatty. alright.. that's how i spent my christmas this yr. =((
meeting up them for steamboat later on.

all of a sudden, i was wondering if today is christmas eve?? duhz
and i reminded myself 'yes, it is'.
how come i wasnt in a mood for CHRISTMAS this yr? nt even a tiny winy bit.
and i came to realise i was lacking in much of the things ard me.
things like getting my car license when everyone ard me owns one alrdy and meeting up my old pals, nt to mention i haven't seen my dear friend sally for as long as 6 mths, eversince her chalet at june.
and the worst thing ever happened was im god-damn BROKE now. i hate to say it. but yah.. i gotta admit im so bloody BROKE at this point of time whereby everyone is talking abt those crazy midnight sales and discounts lying everywhere. so happening yet i cant ENJOY. WTF is this man!! ARGHSSSS!!! its fucking unfair!
fantastically, i havent SHOP for a overlong period of 2 mths or so. and people who know me well knews im a no-limit shopaholic. that kind of die-die i also want to buy no matter what. the past nor short or long 2 mths seems double or perhaps triple longer then it supposed to be. im nt exaggerating, trust me.. thou its nt that kind of end of the world thing but if compared it makes no difference either. PATHETIC is the best word to descibe me right now. ha!ha!ha! laugh all u want. i cant be bothered anyway.

ooh yah, YQ really surprise me with a phone call ytd night when im abt to reach hm in qq's car. initially i tot it was those usual prank calls from private number again. i was thinking who the hell so boliao still prank on others at morning 3+am. and to my shocking its him calling all the way from brunei. =)) but still i cant help holding back awhile and suspecting if its really him. LOL.
thou we contacted each other back thru msn aft i found his friendster thru his sis acc few mths back ago, our msn chats are kind of stale. perhaps there are far too much things to share between us and we havent chat for long time, as a result i had this unfamilar feeling in between. and he's been appearing offline eversince we chatted for less than 5 session. tot he MIA again this time. LOL.
i shld say im totally overwhelmed, i've nt hear from him for like 9 years?? of all pple nv did i expected it'll be him calling. so lost in words. kakaka~ cant imagine we've both MIA for 9 yrs. and both of us were asking the same question: "where the hell hv u MIA for the past 9 yrs!". LOL.
our conversation turn into a much more intersting this time. reminiscing all night.. and laughing real hard at the past time when we played alot of stupid things together, nt forgetting with his sis together as well. he asked me if i still remember that particular incident whern we went to buy a small fishing net from my dad's shop then went to batok nature park to catch those lil fish at the pond. LMAO. instantly i recall it and went LOL. so childish of us and i wonder if anyone remember sawing us 9 yrs ago, squatting beside the pond trying to catch fishes with a small net. ahahaha. i cant remember did we caught any fish in the end.
now i understand how it feels to find someone back. sharing childhood memories together. but the sweet moments we had wasnt cheap at all. that phone call from burnei which lasted for less than an hr cost him over a total of 80 bucks. ooh gossh. when he told me, i went dumbfounded for a few secs and ask him are we going to continue chatting if its going to cost u a bomb? he replied he's ok with it. =)) kakaka~ since he said ok so im also ok with it then. geez.

ooohh SHIT!
i gotta admit im still soooo mesmerize in it. =))
i bet anyone can see thru unless u are a pure dumb.

i've been suffering from some kind of insomnia eversince the sch holidays started. and hence it explains why i'm still blogging now in the wee hours. grr..

down with a slight headache aft finishing my dinner, thus i decided to stay at hm and ask the guys to count me out for the night, moreover it's going to be those same old places for rounding again.
anyway i just got myself cooked a pack of instant noodles a few mins ago. -.-" knowing that its damn bloody fattening to eat anything at this hr, i still cant resist munching up some food to satisfied the craving i had. duhz
without people telling me, i knew i've been putting on some weights lately due to the SCH HOLIDAYS AGAIN.
i've been eating endless supper late at night.
and how the hell am i going to burn all those fats i accumulated during the holidays??? ARGHS!

alright.. sun's coming out soon. gotta try to catch some slp now. ciaos..

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my first ever experience travelling with a lousy bike to malaysia!! ARGHS!!
bloody hell!
imagine u'll hv to keep worrying if u'll ever get back to S'PORE.
all thanks to QQ.
weihao was much more luckier than me, cos he's on fatty's bike and unfortunate me is on that QQ"S BIKE. -____-"

qq's bike started to give problems on the way to hao's hse. the gear kept on triggering back to neutral gear, esp when he's shifting the gears up to move off. and whenever that happens, the gearbox will produced a loud 'whaaang' sound, very unpleasing to your ears and somehow it creates a force to pull u back and front again. its kinda problematic as qq had to slow down and try to shift the gear back. but i wasnt worrying much abt it as the bike still manage to move off aft a few attempts of shifting the gears up.
and so those 'whaaang whaaang' sound accompanied me from s'pore to malaysia, duhz.
aft travelling just a few km away from the malaysia custom..
the uncooperative gears gave him bigger problems again. he gotta stop at the side of the road and try shifting the gears this time. i was like.. 'uhhz.. not again' that kind of whinning. i tot it will get back to the sqaure one aft a few kicking of the gears. but this time ard the gears just wouldn't be gd to be cooperative anymore. when i heard qq telling me that he doubt the gears were able to move off again anymore, i start panicking abt it and further more fatty and hao was alrdy far ahead of us to reach out. qq kept on trying and kicking the gears and finally it work!
with lil hope that the bike wont hv problems occuring again we travel down to meet up with fatty and hao, get our money change and went straight to ah ming's motor shop to repair qq's bike. upon reaching ah ming's shop fatty suggest to test his top speed. and i dunno what the hell went thru qq's mind.. his hopeless bike alrdy declare DYING SOON and he still speed to catch up with fatty. original kawa trying to catch up with a brand new super four. -.-" aft slowing down, qq found his bike valve cannot be closed back. *diaos* the bike could hardly get itself moving at low speed with the valve opened. and the alternative way is to hang up with it and ride with the opened valve to ah ming's shop.
ah ming told qq to service his bike cos there's too much carbon stuck inside. the servicing last abt 2 hrs. i sit down there watching qq's bike from a whole piece dismantle to many pieces, then they do some cleaning up of the parts here and there and finally back to a whole piece.
and when its finally done, i was so worn out to say 'yea, at last can go back hm'.
its abt 3+am when we get going once his bike is done. we wanted to get out of malaysia as soon as before it starts to jam at 4am.
ok.. now qq's bike is back to normal. and everyone was dying to get back hm asap to SLP. and just when everyone tot that the worst was over to see qq's bike speeding so smoothly, the fuse of his bike suddenly blow off and went out of electric. the bike slow down itself from 120km/h to 0km/h. it cant even be switch on to kick start it. this time his bike looks toally REAL DEAD. fatty quickly ride back to ah ming's shop and call him over for help. they came down and replaced a new fuse for him. so sway.. the fuse blow off just aft servicing the bike. even thou the bike was repaired and new fuse being replaced, i still cant hv a peace of mind nt worrying any problem might occur again. we carried on our jorney to petrol station before leaving for malaysia. luckily the custom havent start to jam when we reached.
i almost fell aslp on qq's bike upon reaching back hm safely.

nv tot dat the trip to malaysia will be sooo "EXCITING". thanks again MR QQ.

woke up at 6.45am today!!!
and yea, 6.45 in the morning just to savour the shark meat lor mee at tiong bahru.
and its even earlier than waking up for sch.
on the way there my whole mind was indulging in the bowl of SHARK MEAT LOR MEE. LOL
how delicious the lor mee will be esp with the shark meat which i've longed to try it.
i was like so eager to taste it.
aft coming down from fatty's bike,
i immediately went alone looking for the stall.
and sad to say,
when i finally found the stall,
IT WAS CLOSED.
FUCKING HELL!!!
i cant believe, i woke up at 6.45, travel down from bt batok to tiong bahru to see the CLOSED stall infront of me with the big signboard 'SHARK MEAT LOR MEE'. ARGHS!!!
instantly i start whining at fatty abt it.
sighs -.-"
anyway i wasnt sure if its closed or yet to open.

but still i ended up eating LOR MEE but its those kind of normal one.
fatty added to much chilli in it and it turn out to be very HOT.
or was the chilli too hot?
and here comes the best part..
aft fatty bought his wanton mee, he sits RIGHT INFRONT OF ME, scoop a spoon of the wanton soup, put it in his mouth, and BOOM..
he splash that scoop of soup from his MOUTH right on my face!!!
trust me its equally disgusting as someone puked on your face.
i was like what the hell and i felt like pouring my bowl of lor mee on his face in return.
grr... u idiot.
u probably might go eeee or yucks!!!
my first time ever feeling so real disgusted.
and futher more its on my FACE!!!
no more next time u fatty..
i will pay u double and skin u alive!

we headed hm ard 9+am.
i slpt till 6pm then wake up. LOL
going malaysia to pump oil and buy hoon ki with them later on.

i know how it feels, to sit on the edge of your bed, with your face in your hands, wondering 'WHY' and wishing u will feel better.
but sometimes in life, u just gotta hv the both..
it's not right, but it's ok.
give it a full-stop to all the whining thruout the whole night.
cos aft all u are still the only one stuck in your hands of misery.
no one truly understand it, only u yourself do.
when u are ready to proceed again,
wash up everything and move on as it is.
we are here for u, if u still believe in us.
all i can say is all this, rest is up to u.
i say what i feel, but seldom mean what i say.
im just being straight forward thats all.

went to catch the movie 'king kong' at Lido with ALL of them ytd night.
yea, everyone turn up. =))
feels like our family is back alive! *jumps

had a hard time finding parking lots when we reach the carpark opposite borders.
in the end we only manage to buy tickets for 1pm.
i've got to admit the front part of the show was BORING. *yawns
so BORING till it bores our dear ah bao aslp thruout the show. LOL
but things gets exciting during the long events before they get to Skull Island where king kong is.
the scenes on Skull Island are horrific and hell GROSS.
those giant insects totally freaked me out.
overall, the show want us to feel smypatise on king kong,
as king kong falls in love with beauty,
and make u feel sorry when humans kill the beast, king kong.
of course, you'll have to wait 3 hours for the beast to die lah. LOL
the show ended at 4+am.
and we headed hm.

i desperately need slping pills!!!
im hving nv ending sleepless night. *grr
seriously need HELP on it!
pathetic piece of shit~

due to bear's minor accident ytd, we didnt manage to catch the movie 'king kong' at night. =((
im nt sure wat happen actually,
smth like the car infront of bear suddenly e-brake and both cars just kissed together.
a lil bit of scratches here and there.
nth serious i guess.
qq, fatty, hao and i meet up as usual.
went thomson prata hse to fill our stomachs,
and headed to seletar damp..
my gossh.. alot of tiong chias dat night.
but none of my yellow evo IX was there. *yawns
we are more on the side of glaring at those tiong chias/bikes and comparing them rather then chit chatting among us. *duhz
aft dat we went down to sembawang beach.
someone strike on the topic of S**.
wahahahaha~
pretty obvious wat the word is. LOL

we are so into it and chatted till 4+am without realising. *hah
nt to mention our pitiful hao kanna suan by us again.
kakaka~

PICS
worst SICKO i've every met. *pengz

our buck teeth. kakaka~

yea, i ticked it myself. *heh

i bet u agree with me. =)))

spot the swollen portion near my lips.
found it?


muahahaha~
kawaii??

im nt in a mood for everything lately.
i cant figure WHY either. *sigh

it seems like people care cause they're always around me but when the day is done and everybody runs,
who will be the one to save me from myself?
it may seem i have everything but everything means nothing.
grr..

do u know how it feels to find a trace of words unspoken from a friend like u?
u don't know me now like u knew me before.
u've stopped listening the moment that i needed u the most.
ur every word cuts me inside and leaves me worse.

first it was u then now everyone.
what has actually gotten between all of us???

TADAAAH~
MY NEW PINK LAYOUT! *roll eyes
getting too bored at hm during the period of recovery..
so decided to do a new skin. =))

went to visit grandma with my mum in the afternoon.
grandma got a slight stroke while visiting my uncle at malaysia a few wks ago.
didnt went to visit during her stay at hospital,
cos back then i still yet to recover. *duhz
but mum said she did recover alot since her last visit to grandma. =D

meet up with bao at wm ard 9pm.
we chilled awhile at kfc.
aft dat i went over to hao hse.
fatty came along.
chatted till ard 12+am.
hao went hm,
fatty and i headed to alameen for my cheese prata. =))
and then back hm.

that's all for today.
gotta catch some slp now. ZzZzZz
see ya..

AT LAST.. I'VE RECOVER! *roar*
it took ard like 1 wk to heal?
grr.. watever lah.
recover means my nightlife is back. =)))

went to sing k at marina square with them ytd night. it was actually fatty's belated bday night. surprisingly, they got this invitation of one person per room pool challenge with the supervisor. a jug free is all yours if u beats the supervisor. and u dun lose out anything if u lost the game. upon hearing it the guys immediately submit hao's name for the challenge.
while the guys went over to the VIP room to hv the pool game with the supervisor, qq and i was singing hell crazy together in the room. LOL. and nt forgetting that slping beauty beside us, GOH POH HUI. hahaha! this pig can still be in real deep slp despite qq and i were singing on top of our voice. u can't imagine how INSANE we are in the room. LMAO. and dats when qq was on form dat night. freaking funny.
aft the long maddness we had, the guys came back with VICTORY. yea, our 'zhun ka' hao won the game!! one jug free for the night as assured! bao and bear was getting tired as the night goes on with the energetic ones.. qq, fatty, hao and i. heh.

we bill off at ard 3.30am. and the payment for the carpark was hell expensive. DAMN! 6 bucks sia. and that makes it 12 bucks for 2 cars. and who the hell said it cost only $2+ thruout the night??? *yawns at his face. headed to alameen for some bite before going hm. started raining on the way at AYE. -.-" sian 1/2. bao and hao was like half dead when we reached alameen. LOL. and no doubt im still wide awake. =)
due to my superb alive energy, i watched tv till 6am aft i reached hm. applause pls! hahaha.

p/s: no photos were taken dat night. =))

my horoscope says dat today is a wonderful day to shop for new clothes. sighs. wonderful? bleak.. life's totally stragent stucking at hm. i gotta admit my life now spells b-o-r-i-n-g. any kind-soul to cast a magic spell on me and heal it pls? i've longed for wks to doll up myself and walk on the streets. my clothes, makeups, earrings are ROTTING in my closet. grr.. i shan't eleborate.

im feeling deeply contradicted right now. i hope things wont turn out the way i expected.

im gonna do whatever it takes to make it up to u aft i've recover. *PROMISE
i know very clearly just who u are to me.
i'm nt letting another gd friend of mine go.
and dats YOU!!!

i hope its still nt too late to let u know just how important u are to me.
IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU.

actually.. i didnt intend to blog. -.-"
cos there aint gonna be any happening stuffs to talk abt staying at hm all this while.
but look.. who's blogging now??
i tot it might kill part of my time sitting in front of my com,
so y nt?

yup.. no doubt im still STUCK at hm! *fuggin sick of it.
felt as thou im being GROUNDED.
time passes very slowly,
seconds seems minutes, minutes seems hrs. *grr
wat to do..?
fated to suffer the torment of hearing others being so enjoyed outside,
while all i am is a real UGLY DUCKLING right now.
await the day it HEALS! =)))
so missed nightlife. *damn

fatty postpone his bday ktv night to this sat, great!
one of the reason behind it was bcos of ME. *heh
neither do i want to miss out the fun too.
its been sometime since i last sing k.
reminds me of my all time fav 'MUST SING' song 'shou le dian shang' by ah sang.
the guys always tease me for being so MTV when im singing the song. *LOL
i shall sing till my throat SORE,
to compensate all these while stucking @ hm.

hoping and awaits the day my face heal and then KTV night. =DDD

one last thing before i sign off..
wanna thanked fatty for helping me buy meals and send it over to my hse.
greatly appreciated! *smile at u :)
esp the mac spicy double burger,
so spicy dat my lips and mouth turns burning HOT. >.<
anyway THANKS again.
still a few more days till my face recover..
and hungry means must eat right?
sooo.... *hiaks
u know wat i mean.
okok.. i know i know..
i know u dun mind at all. :~~
XIEXIE NI!

RANDOM PICS

weihao and me. RETARDS


my "PRETTY" classmate. >.<"


adorable stranger #1.
taken @ westmall MOSburger.


adorable stranger #2.
taken outside my sch coffeeshop.

been staying at home for the past few days!
my face is giving me problems again..
it's making me so frustrated!
pple are outside enjoying their holiday while me stuck at hm!
wat the F is this!
can someone heal me?

i'm sorry i can't celebrate ur bday ktv night with u.
as you know i just mention above abt my face problem.
forgive mi yah?
will make it up to u by all means when i'm fully recover. *promise

p/s: a BIG thanks to my buddies for sending me msgs concerning abt my face. im fine, real fine, aint the first time happening on me anyway. but it somehow seems to bring me no where. nt in mood for everything and ANYTHING. u guys shld know me better than anyone else does. PATHETIC is wat im feeling every now and then, being cooped up at hm for tons of hrs.. how great is dat?