money money money

today super duper no mood for school. cause rest for 2 days at home le. argh! was feeling very terrible the night before. i swear to myself i won't ever want to be sick again. this time around i SURRENDER.
yesterday night went to meet ah bao at Lot1. then we went to eat tepanyaki. yummy. but the people there serving got attitude problem sia. those jiu hu bei[malaysian] give me that kind of look ma chiam i owe them money. not the first time liao. is everytime i go there is like that de. but LL the food there nice. somemore the nearest outlet at there nia. went to buy earrings over there. hee. went to west mall awhile after that.
now at hao house. should be attending CSK now. but the lesson really bo liao lor. that camel sleeping like a camel now sia. hugging his bloster and trying to choke himself. hahax. cause he hug it on his face. lolx. stupid camel.
hopefully by tonight i can get my money. if not have to wait till tml then buy my phone. and definately i will go for SHOPPING. wahahahx.

i'm really sick!

now at hao house. just accompany him to dover register. damn long sia. didn't go school today. hee. but not pon is i really sick. my throat really sore. haix. later going to PAP take my money. whahaha. waited for soooo long. went to cine kbox with them afew days ago. lolx. i sang my fav. song again. that stupid fan go and video cam it. shit sia. but the bill is kinda ex. which we didn't expected it. the total amount when the bill come is $142 sia. end up we got no money to pay then help them wash plates and wipe the room. hahax. no lah. j/k nia. tml going back to school again. damn sian ar. still got the POI project haven't do. tonight dunno go where again.

disgusting ah bao trying to k*** me. nahx.



that's me and ah bui. hee.



camel and me. hahax

why? i asked myself.

haix. mdm neo talk to me today. as what i expected she will one day. what she said to me is what mr oh said. i know what they mean. they meant it good for me and my future. but i also dunno why i'm still in my course. actually wanna change course but have to travel very far to simei. so i decided to stay at my current course. but it ain't doing me any good. so confused. dunno what the point of going school everyday when all i do day dreaming. i really dunno what i wanna do in future. i take one step at a time and i dun really like to look far ahead of me.

are u happy?

actually going malaysia at 1pm plus. but me and fan overslept so now i'm at his house using the com first. if later the rain stop then go.
i guess yesterday night everything went well. i can see that he enjoyed himself. we went to geylang eat frog porridge then we went to take a walk at the "chickens" there. i'm always so excited to see them. they got really big boobs. argh!!! i get very happy when i see them same as for going changi bio ah quas. after that we went to eat durian at nearby. hahax. stupid weihao burp inside the car. the smell BTH sia. we then went to sembawang beach relax awhile. reach home at 2am still not shag, dunno why but have to force myself sleep. we were sort of searching for something at the beach. cause we keep hearing a kind of electronic beep sound. but we didn't found anything. we even dig up the rubbish bin near us. lolx. so foolish of us.
hope he will really feel happy from the inside and not just pretending.

say cheese! suting and me



solarize effect of us



bleahx :Pp



oh my! my darling is behind the bars but she seems quite happy about it. doesn't she? :X



same goes for me. let me outtt!



last but not least. that's me again. hee.

try it on me again and the one suffering is U!

a long time didn't blog. cause i was waiting for the stupid thingy from blogger. i blog someday ago and that blog i wrote really means alot to me and it didn't publish out after i post. was damn irritated that day. so i waited for this "recover post" thing in blogger to help me get back my blog but i guess they just haven't fixed it yet. still can't work when i click it.
now at fan house again. just now infared some pics i took with suting today during POI lesson. later gonna post them up. hee :) was doing nothing for the POI lesson. cause me and suting didn't take the coursework today.
didn't happen much things nowadays. didn't went to much places also. cause they all mean the same to me. sometimes i do give in to some people although i dun feel like doing so. cause i tell myself that i should spare a thought for them. but if some people start doing those i called stupid stunts rather than appreciating it, then i'm too sorry. i dunno if that someone will happen to read this. if u do i just wanna tell u that if u still wanna continue all those stunts, go ahead. cause i believe i can make u feel many times more than how u make me feel. try it with all the stunts u can do on me. and the one suffering is u yourself. i'm listing some here just in case u dun get what i mean: making me feel extra and u do your stunts to make me feel moody. i've already give in to u alot, which i'm not doing these to OTHER GUYS. hope u know the 'U' i'm refering is u. it happen twice so far. if there's a third time then that's it. dig your own grave then!

it's over!

i've broke off with him yesterday. i know i shouldn't do it but i just can't continue with someone when all i can treat him is a friend to me now.
he msg me yesterday night asking me whether wanna come out for a walk saying that it's been a long time since we last go out walk together. i told him i'm not in a mood. he replied saying that when will i ever have the mood? everytime tell him no mood. so i told him let's end our relationship. he couldn't take it as what i've expected. i told him to give himself sometime cause i won't change the decision which i've made. i even answer all the questions he asked me. but i guess he just dun get what i mean and he keep saying i didn't explain enough to him. well it's over anyway so there's no point explaining so much after all.
he meet out ah bao and hao yesterday night. i heard from fan that his condition is quite bad. just now while i was walking to fan house. i keep thinking how is him. it's not that i still got feelings for him that's why i think about him. but he's a good guy and i really dun wish to see him like this. before i made the desicion breaking up with him i kept thinking what should i really do. i can't force myself either. in the game of love there's always someone who will walk away feeling better and the other one doesn't.
being with him is not that kind of 'not good'. but it seems like whenever i go out with him i dun really enjoy myself. or maybe i should say it's totally not in my memories at all. i never use the word 'love' on him before. he asked me why before also. i dunno how to tell him. but he's always that confidence saying that one day i will say it to him. i ask myself whether is it i need more time on that. but i guess it's not.
u all might be thinking i'm talking rubbish here. if i dun love him and now i knew i was treating him as a friend then why do i still agree to be with him in the very first place. isn't it?
i dun wanna miss a good guy like him and he's been very sincere to me all along. i thought to myself that maybe i can give it a try cause he's someone that i can imagine my future with him. we started alright in the beginning. but to me it's not a normal feeling for something called 'love'. things which i bought for him and saying yes to him when he ask me out or whatever is because i keep reminding myself that he's my bf and being a gf of hers i should do my part. guess it was why we are getting well in the beginning. but i realised that i can't go on like this. its kinda no meaning for me and so my feelings for him is slowly becoming as a friend. that's why i started to treat him cold. i feel that i will treat him better as a friend and not gf.
that's the conclusion of why i made the decision. i hope he will soon come over it. cause i know how it feels also. may god made him realise it's impossible and he should get on with his normal life.

Alicis Keys - Karma

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play wit me
Cause...

[Chorus]
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

[Repeat Chorus]

Gotta stop trying to come back to me

[Repeat Chorus]

It's called Karma baby and it goes around

it's a thing called "Karma"

now at fan house during my break time. later 1230 need to be back for EVT lesoon. hmm fallen for this song called "Karma". it's sang by Alicia Keys. the song is meaningful as well. i think it will happen on me soon cause... dun wish to mention it. sometimes i ask myself whether will i regret if sometimes this kind of karma things do happen on me. cause i'm always hurting others. but i just can't help forcing myself to do things which i got no feeling in it anymore. haix. i wish i won't be like this also. anyway if ah bao u happen to read this. i'm sorry if he somehow bothered u. -_-