im SPEECHLESS.
below is my today's horoscope.
if u wanna know y i react dat way..
dats the best explaination i can give u.

You may fall into a very pessimistic attitude, ZhenFoong. Suddenly everything looks bleak and the glass half empty. You may feel like your life is going around in circles and you may be asking yourself what you are doing it all for, anyway. Realize that you can talk yourself out of this mood just as easily as you have talked yourself into it. Although this may not seem to be the case, you must trust that it is in order to see the glass as half full again.

IM LOST SOMEWHERE.
SOMEWHERE IT DOESN'T BELONG TO ME.

i know i shldn't hv said those words to u.
but sometimes i dunno y..
the presence of u makes me wanna do so.
i will only understand how it feels being in ur shoes aft a night of peace and rest.
im not being sorry or guilty abt it neither am i telling u all this dat i wanna be strong or need ur concern or watsoever.
its a feeling of something's nt right here or there.
i didnt say anything to u is bcos im not fit to say all those things out.
not ur fault and not mine as well.
its just a feeling of mine,
i cant control it.
its u who voice out its meaningless to continue our friendship then of cos i will abide to it.
since u find it so and i cant say anything to change ur thinking also.
and abt the morning msg..
if u havent guess it,
i'll tell u now, once and for all to clear everything.
wat i mean is to continue our friendship,
which also means continue wasting ur sms and also wasting my time reading it.
i hope u get wat i mean.
if u still willing to take me as a friend, by all means,
i'll be glad to hear it.
but i can nv assure u i wont feel dat way again.
but if u dun, i will accept and respect it.
dats all i wanna say to u.