what am i doing?

have been wondering what am i really doing this few days. haven't been attending school since last friday without any mc. don't feel like attending school at all.
chatted over the phone with fan till 3 plus in the morning. told him all my problems. and i really fucking irritated over qq. i'm gonna throw away the ring into the sea. if worse come to worse i will throw it right infront of him. i really had enough of him.
just now me and fan went west mall find ah bao. guess she's shag. and i don't really feel like talking to her much. dunno why.
really dunno what i want to do. i only feel like killing him. chop him into million pieces and feed the animals. shit him man. if only i can use shit and cover up his whole face. hopefully tml i will go to school.